Magic pulsing through the air I breathe,
Music weaving in & out of my mind,
Imagination taking hold of my mind.
I see him & I, holding hands while walking in the streets
Love is the only thing I wish for anymore'
The one thing I've never been able to have, not from him.
I've been waiting for him my whole life, my best friend.
I mourn the days we haven't been able to spend together
Because fate hasn't brought us together quite yet.
I pray for him, constantly hoping his life is good.
Then I realize, that he's still coming, that he's not here yet.
Waiting for the day our eyes meet.
Dreamer, that's all I am, dreaming of the days when I won't be alone.
Ready, I feel I was born ready to fall in love.
To feel the way the world lifts a person up & spins them around,
I want to know what that feels like, to know that he actually cares.
Time is moving too slow, I don't want to wait any longer.
Yet I can't make it go any faster.
I'm ready to have my world turned upside down by him.
To spend days laughing by his side.
Feeling the world surround us as we fall in love.

1st day of my schedule & it's going really well. Of course I have to tweak a few things, but other than that, it's wonderful. I'm SUPER tired though! I do a work out video for fat people for an hour, then I bike around lake Phalen & just work & stuff. It's so much work but I feel so good. I'm going to add a dance technique video soon so that I can work on that, as well as working on sight singing. It still bothers me that I have to give myself piano lessons & mom gives piano lessons to her friends the Greens. It just makes me REALLY jealous. I'm actually a VERY jealous person, especially when it come to my parents. They just ignore me basically. Mom is basically my employer. I work for room & board. Blah no sense dwelling on that. Off to study for my ACTs!

GAH! Sooo I kind of hate the people I'm going to be staying with. NOT my God mother but her kids just GET ON MY NERVES!!!!! They're REALLY ignorant & rude. The biggest problem is that they all adore me ... Which means I can't get rid of them ... EVER!!!!!!!! Sometimes when I sleep over they watch me sleep ... KINDA creepy you know? Oh I'm also pretty ticked because Dad told me he & mom were going to be home at 2, 2:30ish & now mom says they won't be home for another 2 hours. This REALLY screws with Abbster & I's plans sooo ... I'm gonna stay at Abbster's for QUITE a while. Grrrrr. Oh & then mom was like "& stop texting, I need to work on my marriage". I wanted to say "Oh gee mom you think?" But that's rude & disrespectful so I just THINK these things. Blah well Ciao!

Summer Dreams

Here I am. I'm a swinger on a swing.
Warm sun in my face, cool breeze lifting me
To a place where I, can be alone, inside my mind.
Because I see you in my sky, even though you're gone I feel you here.
Sometimes it makes me sad, I wish you were here but it's okay.
I remember the days we spent, just talking to each other.
You used to be my very very best friend
But all of a sudden you just disappeared into space.
I still wish I could see your face
Then I remember you are in the wind, you are in the sun
You are everywhere I am.
The love you gave me keeps me warm when I've forgotten how to breathe.
Please come back & laugh with me in the sun
But then reality hits me, you're gone
I'm alone on the swing again.
But I imagine someone else to take your place
Someone who will stay will me everyday.
I can wait until my hair turns grey & I am old.
Because I'm not going anywhere, for long.
I'm just me. A swinger. Swinging on this swim again.
You're too far away to hear me but I'm singing your name.
Just remember me when the day turns to night & you forget to live
Remember I am with you now & always whispering "keep holding on for me"
Summer dreams of you & me taking hold of whatever is keeping me
From falling off the edge of eternity.
I remember you don't you remember me?
I won' let go of my dreams.

1st Day!

GAH!!!! So I'm REALLY bad at this sort of thing ... I mean REALLY bad. Sooo ... mom & dad are leaving for a day long vacation without us so we're off to White Bear to stay with my God mother! Abbster & I are hanging out tomorrow! SO excited. We're probs going to see How To Train Your Dragon! =-D