You have to take the good with the bad
The truth with the lie,
The pain with the comfort.
That's the way that life is, always up & down
Never one straight path.
As I sit cross legged in the car I stare up at the biggest marvel
The sky so large & complicated,
Sometimes I wish it would just swallow me whole
Clouds doing ballets in the air.
Sending beautiful beams of light down to my eyes.
Imagining how intricate those little wisps must be.
We all need to find the beauty in the simple things.
Find the fortune inside those cheap little cookies.
Because if we wait around for the good to come our way,
We may miss the pretty sparkles showing us that life isn't about the big things.
Life is all about the small.

Hey guys ... or just Sarah ... I'm in Aurora, IL & it's you know ... The girls here aren't the friendliest ... but you know it's a place to stay so I won't complain. Anyways we're going to visit Berny at 5 & have dinner ... she's dying sooo you know mom loves her & she's a sweetie so it's all good. I'm pretty tired because Anna is the worst bed mate you could ever have, but I've always known that. So I miss my buddies a lot. Life is just this big mess of fun & sadness, we've gotta learn to cope with it. Hold on I feel some magical words coming on ... I better start writing another poem! OOOO one more thing! I'm writing a book-ish thing ... & I should probably eat breakfast ...

Dreams

Fulfilling dreams form ages ago seems so hopeless but when you really look at it, those who've kept dreams and fulfilled them are more happy than people who fulfilled dreams that were made within a couple weeks. Lift to me is so much more fun if you go out and experience it yourself. Sitting in a room having someone teach you is fine, but sometimes you just need to go out and learn things for yourself. I have dreamed of a world where you could do things for you, not someone else. Where you live for today not tomorrow. No one can tell you what to do or how to do it. There you don't have to deal with adults who don't fell like having fun. Sure some adults are awesome but some want to control every move I make. Never let people control who you are. No one is worth that much. Only God should have that power. Don't lose yourself just because someone is a different way. Love WHO you are more than WHAT you are. Dream. If you don't have your dreams you don't really have yourself. When you feel like giving up, and throwing in the towel, don't. Life may get you down every once in a while but if you give in what's the point of starting? When you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I always will be. Sometimes it may not seem that way, but I always will.
... Okay I wrote that forever ago & forgot how completely and totally cheesy that was ... but I'll stick with it because what am I if not cheesy? I may edit this later ...

AHHH!!! I'm leaving for Chicago tomorrow but 2 of my best friends came back from their trips yesterday! Sarah's been gone for super long & Abbey only a week but ... =-( I want to be able to see them. This trip is going to be SUPER short though ... but oh well such is life. I am so very tired ... & hungry. I'm also bothered because my little brother took the wii remotes & that means I am unable to play right now. Today is going to be filled with cleaning & packing, I think I'm ready for that. I'll try to keep blogging whilst I am gone, but I'm not sure how much mom & dad will allow me. :/ I'll come up with something brilliant to say later. Ciao!

Underneath His Wing

Closed eyes, open hands
I hand you on to Him.
May He always keep you underneath His wing.
I pray that you will always know yourself,
That you will not forget me after today.
Because I see in you, everything I've wanted for myself.
You made me smile more in these few days
Than the others ever did.
I hope she keeps you safe & happy.
That you & she will make your dreams into reality.
I may be far away, but I'll always think of you,
Time & time again, I will miss you.
Let God hold you up when you feel like falling.
May He always keep you underneath His wing.
I hove that every single dream you have will become truth
& though I know you will forget me,
I'm okay with that, you were never mine.
God had us meet for a reason.
He had some special plan for this.
I really hove I passed this test, I know I'm meant to say good-bye.
I'm alright with that as long as you are happy.
Thank you, for the laughter that you brought me.
Thank you, for all the smiles I was given.
I owe you one, for lifting me a bit higher.
Open heart & hands, to release you,
Closed eyes so I will not look back,
I will not sit in melodrama, hearing the violins.
I've done that too many times,
So now I hope that God will hold you for me,
You'll be safe while you're with Him.
Here's to all these good times I hope that there'll be more.
May God always keep you underneath His wing.

The One Who Got Away :(

So ... I haven't really liked a guy for almost 2 years ... I mean LIKE like, as in smiling every time you see him, think of him, anyone even mentions him ... well he was every thing I've ever dreamed of ... & today I found out he has a girlfriend. Now I haven't known him for very long AT ALL, but I "fell". I'm happy for him, honestly. I'm praying even now as I type this that he'll be happy forever & that he & his girlfriend will be together as long as God sees fit. I can't give up. It's been so long since any guy made me that happy in such a short time ... I'll pray for him everyday. Here's to all those people who change you in a matter of a few days. I'll tell you a secret, I love him. Just love. That's what my God sightings (aka preschoolers) have taught me most this week. To just love. Arms wide open, eyes closed, no worries. That's the best kind of love. It's gonna be hard tomorrow to say good bye to my preschoolers. I LOVE them. They change me everyday.

My Preschoolers at VBS

There is nothing in the world so beautiful as a preschooler. It's a time when you still believe that mommy & daddy are the most amazing people in the world, God is still you're very most favorite being, you cry when you can't play for long, bubbles, laughter, & chalk fill your days. You love so easily & forgive even easier. Boys are people who you love but are okay if they run away. There are two preschoolers I absolutely adore. Collin & Maesa. They both made my day by telling me they loved me in that shy cute way that just wraps me around their little adorable fingers. Here's to the preschooler in all of us. Don't be afraid to love & forgive, & don't sweat the stubbed toes & all those times you fall down, that's the whole part of the adventure. Don't forget to explore everything, everyday.