I Could Fall For You

I could easily fall for you

Watching you sleep, head on the table as I figure out math

Small conversations about nothing but everything

Always trying to not to catch each other glancing.

How easy it would be to adore you

Like the boy before you & the one before him & the one before him

But I don't know you, not enough to like you.

That's what I've learned, to know who I'm falling for

Otherwise it hurts too much & I won't know what's coming.

I wish I was better at talking to boys

Then I'd talk to you all day

Unfortunately I can't, I can never find anything to say

Words end up falling right out of my mouth

All sorts of stupid things, the absolute worst things to say,

Nothing about me begs to keep you

For too many have used me.

Pain is sometimes all I can see. hear, or feel.

Roller-coaster, that's my life, I am a mess

But that's shy I don't want you to fall for me.

These feelings I could encourage, I smother

You have no idea what I'm like, nor I you.

One look though at your amusing & entertaining face

Almost makes me want to burst

So you're a couple months younger

I don't really care about that,

Eventually you'll grow up & be the man that you're meant to be.

It'd be SO easy, to give in & fall for you

Fear snaps me into place, my fear of the great unknown

No one really thinks of those things when they fall in love

Leaving caution behind they let the feelings win.

That's not who I am, I don't want the pain

I won't fall, not today. I'll enjoy the smiles

Conversations & I'll catch you looking because I'll be looking too.