The World Is A Playground

The world is a playground
Love is the swing
The pebbles are hatred
Monkey bars represent success.
But I can't seem to get off the swing.
I once had someone to swing with,
Until he jumped off right at the top.
Sadness is when it's time to go home.
One more swing you beg of time,
Another go on the monkey bars.
You'd even settle for a scraped knee,
Maybe even some pebbles in the wound.
Anything but going home.
The world is a playground
Jealousy is the slide
The initials in permanent marker are friendship
Tire swings are family gatherings
Still, I am clinging to my swing
His swing is slowing down
To & fro-ing less & less with each passing moment.
Loneliness is the teater-totter without someone to ride with.
You try so hard to make the other side go down
Stomping on the ground
Piling pebbles onto the seat
Nothing works, no amount of hate can fill that void.
So I give up.
I push those silly pebbles off,
Then I slip back on the swing.
Here I am, swinging back & forth on my own.
Love, it's what my life is about, loving him no matter what.
Swinging feels like flying, especially when you're alone.
My heart & I will always love him,
Because the world is a playground,
& I'm the kid.
Sometimes, people get bored of swinging
I never will, no matter how tired, or how scared.
This love will prove itself.
When it's time for others to come & leave,
My swing will keep on swinging,
Loving him enough to let him go.
The world is my playground,
& I love the swings.

Chase Them

Chase them, chase them round & round
Try to drown yourself in all the hotties you can find
Inside I'll bet you're hurting all the way down to your toes.
Lust for all those girls if you think it'll help
Just don't snap at my best friend, don't you dare
It's all your own fault if you are lonely on your own.
Chase them, hormonal boy until you realize the truth
No amount of attractive women are going to ease this pain.
I'm not saying that I'm the one for you
Only God knows that.
What I'm saying is that if in one month you're not happy yet,
Don't you think that there might be a flaw,
In the way you think?
Chase them, get on out there, find the hottest one.
Woo her, the way you once tried to woo me.
Send her those red roses & a box full of sweets.
I hope you find the passion you lost.
All I want is for you to be happy.
If you find a girl who does it for you, then great.
But I'll bet she'll never love you the way I do.
Chase them if you feel the need to.
Run after them & don't look back.
Now it's my turn to move on, silly boy.
Long will be the process of getting past you
The memories still pierce me through
Someday I will keep my pillow dry for a week,
& then I'll be the one who is finding someone else.
Chase them, please, so I can stop pretending
Once you do, I'll know it's truly over.
Go ahead, do all those thing I didn't want to.
But if at the end of the day, you feel the same,
What was the point of those flashes of ecstasy?
In the end, it's all about what last,
& if you find the answers that you're looking for,
Then chase them, silly boy, chase them until the end of time &don't look back.

Is It Time?

I spend everyday in complete silence,
Not a word that crosses my lips means anything.
My missing you is the only thought in my head.
But maybe one morning I'll wake up
& that piercing dull ache won't sting as much.
All I seem to do is waste my time
Sitting in front of my computer doing nothing.
Love, it's said, changes a person forever,
Cripples them, destroys them, turns them upside down
Yet something tells me, it's going to make me better
More clever, less selfish, most honest, less tactless.
Is it time for my transformation?
Shall I arise from my seat & change the world?
Is it time?
You are all I want, nothing can take your place.
No movie, no show, no store, no book, no bear, no frog, no food,
No hobby, no friend, no pet, no flirt, no crush, no anything.
Don't you doubt that for one second.
You can chase after whatever hot waitress you see
Just know that at the end of the day, I still miss you.
One of these days, I'm going to be okay again.
Then I'll be better than I've ever been.
Is it time for me to grow my wings?
Please say it's time for me to fly.
Is it time?
No matter what I try to tell myself.
You're the only reason I can write anymore.
Inspiration is hard to find in the life I live.
Resisting  the urge to hop on the next bus to you
Forcing my hand away from my phone
Doing my best to leave you alone,
Because I know that's what you want.
Who'd have thought I'd be on my knees over you
If I had known what love means, how it feels.
Caution would never have ended.
Walls would have been built to protect me.
Yet, I'm glad to have known.
Because now, I have inspiration, now I have a spark
Soon I will build it into a flame
Then it will be time.
When this pain becomes strength
Forcing me to get up & change myself
Into the best version of me.
Rising up & reaching for the will to live,
& challenging me to love with my whole heart again.
Only then will I spread my wings & soar.

People Always Leave

Anger, it bites us all some days
When it's not, angry is licking your heels
Slicing & burning you achilles tendon
Is it a wonder that people always leave?
Weakness, like an annoying little brother
Making you believe there's nothing you can do
Stabbing & beating your soul to a pulp
Is it a mystery that people always leave?
Sadness, gripping your heart with a cold hand
Freezing you cold vein by vein
Leaving a broken version of yourself behind
Is it a surprise that people leave?
Pain, often it crouches below the surface
Sipping the life from your soul so slowly
Turning you hard & empty in the core
How is it shocking when everybody leaves?
Everyday we wake up with this weight on our shoulders
The weight of every disappointment & every broken heart
All the dreams we've left unfulfilled slowly breaking our backs.
Remember we too always leave.
If he breaks your heart you're gone.
When your enemy is around you're gone
That kid wants help you're gone
So now you're the one who always leaves
No sex? You leave. Regret? You leave. Afraid? You leave.
You just keep on leaving.
How can you expect anyone else to stay?
I have succumbed to anger & weakness
Played the victim to sadness & pain
I too wake up with weights in my shoulders
But I have sworn to never leave.
Strength is a quiet whisper
Injecting you with warmth
Reminding you that someday, somewhere,
There will be someone who'll always stay.

Below the Surface

I used to believe in everything
Used to walk the streets with a smile on my lips
Well, I guess I still do
But the smile only touches the surface
Below the surface, deeper than even I know
My heart is breaking with each passing day.
You haunt my every move, remembering it hurts
Loving you is all I can do, so I send it to you.
Every breeze to brush your hair,
Every ray of sun that kisses your face
Every raindrop to wet your skin
Are all the signs of my love for you.
Below the surface is the only place I can feel.
But I've locked those doors without even knowing it
I can't feel a thing anymore
To see your face or hear your voice
Reminding me what it's like to feel
I can't.
You've left me behind & I won't bother you.
I love you.
Only below the surface
Can't let the rest of the world know I'm dying.
Won't even let myself know my agony
So I locked it up, far below the surface.
Until one day I find someone to take your place
I don't want anyone but you.
Alone I'll sit & write letters & poems
Every single one written to you.
Because I have so much to say
There are still so many things I want to share.
You told me always, & I thought it would be
I thought I had so much more time
My mistake, it won't happen again.
I'll take this thought & all my others & lock them down below the surface.