Growing Up Now

I'm growing up now,
On my way to the big one eight.
The age I've always wanted to be.
All my dreams are coming true.
I've got a boyfriend & he makes me so happy.
He is everything I've always wanted,
Just wanted you to know.
Life has been so much better without you.
I'm growing up now,
Going places I've wanted to go,
Feeling life with my whole heart.
Because you don't exist anymore.
My world is a mess, I won't lie,
Even still, I'm great.
Tip top shape, feeling hotter than ever.
You never got a chance to have me,
Poor you.
I'm growing up now,
Stronger than I have ever been.
Returning to the girl I've longed to be.
No where is more comfortable than my skin,
Fitting me like a glove.
Poetry & crafts, chalking & singing,
Life is on my side this time.
Got into every college I applied for.
Where are you?
I feel sorry for you.
The way that things turned out,
You thought you had my heart,
Little did we know you did nothing for me.
I am growing up now,
With a boyfriend & a job & a life.
Just wait & see what'll become of me.

Written: February 24th, 2012

Strangers

I look into your eyes &
The boy I knew is gone,
But your face is the same.
We were best friends
Playing tag & annoying everyone.
None of it mattered as long as I had you.
You don't exist anymore
Like a beautiful unicorn, you disappeared.
Don't come back, please.
Stay away from me.
Mom told me not to talk to strangers,
That's exactly what you are.
I loved you.
When I needed you, you were there.
Now it's a if we didn't exist.
Be happy.
For goodness sakes, please be happy.
Hold your girlfriend tight.
Just forget about me.
A year ago, I burnt your name.
With your lovely little lie of, "I'm gay,".
Liars have no place here, not in my life
& I don't talk to strangers.
No matter what you look like,
You are a stranger.
Our worlds belong on separate sides of the galaxy.
Don't come around anymore,
Because you aren't you & it hurts.
There are so many like you,
People I loved who walked out on me.
So long, enjoy your new life,
I love mine.
I just hate running into strangers.

Written: February 17th, 2012

Who Am I?

I am a tool,
Used by children on a sunny day.
I get used at school,
Making marks however I may.
I am a voice,
Speaking for those who cannot speak.
I have no choice.
Though what I do is bold, I am weak.
I am art,
Creating a message of power.
The images I make can tear you apart.
With me, you'll never be locked in a tower.
I am chalk.
You can walk all over me
& use me as much as you'd like
I'll just wash away when it rains.
My words are more true than an oath,
Because they are taken straight from the heart & soul.
Penetrating the thickest shields,
Jumping the highest fences.
My power cannot be measured in numbers
Nor by words can it be described
I cannot be kept silent, though I make no sound.
For I am the giggles of little children,
& the voice of a teenaged girl,
Singing to herself as she speaks her truth.
Because I am her, & she is me.
No matter where she goes, I am with her.
College will have to get used to the idea.
I am a game, a tool, a voice.
You can use me, I love to be used,
There is nothing I'd like more.
I am chalk, hear me roar.

We Are Afraid

Who are we?
We stand with arms wide open.
For what?
To hear the world call out to us,
& to feel the wind caress our necks?
I am a girl.
A girl who is afraid.
My heart is slowly slipping far away.
It has started its journey into his loving arms.
No matter what I do, I cannot make it stay.
Perhaps I always knew,
He was meant to hold my heart.
When I fell, he was there.
When I rose, he was there.
When I got hurt, he was there.
So here he is.
Who are we?
We sit, waiting for our lives to start,
For what?
To have everything handed to us
& to never feel any passion?
I am the world.
A world that hides behind sins.
Lust, gluttony, violence, & greed,
Shields to hide our terror.
Of all the foes, love is the greatest enemy.
Because it means giving one person control.
Control of our happiness & our hearts.
Far off in the distance, I see him,
My heart resting in his enormous hands.
Inside & out, I know I've found home.
Who are we?
We are those who are afraid.

Written: January 31, 2012.