Living

It's like they all say
The world is an unknown, crazy place.
Don't leave that which you know,
Stick to your own.
I didn't.
I left.
I chose to live rather than die.
Death was inevitable.
It was sneaking up on me, slowly caressing me
Passing me in a car,
Tickling me in a pill bottle.
Whispering sweet nothings to me as a cleaned a knife.
Death knew how to woo me,
How to suggest our affair.
I could see it in my eyes & skin.
Deeper than anyone around me knew.
So I left.
It's like they all say.
Just stick to it, everything will work out
Keep on plugging
It'll get better, you don't mean that.
But I did.
& it didn't.
I decided it was time to change.
Change is a gift.
Though everyone will say it's not.
Sometimes college isn't the answer.
At least not right away,
I did something else.
Changed.
But that didn't save me.
Nothing can save you unless you save yourself.
You can only lean on yourself.
It's like they all say.
If you work hard enough, anything is possible.
Keep on track.
Don't get distracted.
I did.
I fell in & out of love.
I allowed myself to see things.
Because that's what life is about.
When Death is at your back,
When you feel exiled from the rest of the world
When they tell you it's up to you,
Take time.
We are young, we are strong, we are real.
School & work won't always prepare you for living.
Sure, I still feel the weight of the world on my back.
But I'm alive.
I know that despite all odds, I will live.
Because I have.
& I am.
Death had me in its bed.
It had me filled with promises of peace.
No more stress, no more pain.
Just silence.
When you've lost your love,
All your reasons for going on,
You'll know the dangers of Death's voice.
I almost gave in.
But despite what, "they all" said, I survived.
I can make it through anything
It's like they all say,
The world is a crazy, unknown place.
The only way to make it,
Is to live, to discover.
Then the world becomes your home.