Below the Surface

I used to believe in everything
Used to walk the streets with a smile on my lips
Well, I guess I still do
But the smile only touches the surface
Below the surface, deeper than even I know
My heart is breaking with each passing day.
You haunt my every move, remembering it hurts
Loving you is all I can do, so I send it to you.
Every breeze to brush your hair,
Every ray of sun that kisses your face
Every raindrop to wet your skin
Are all the signs of my love for you.
Below the surface is the only place I can feel.
But I've locked those doors without even knowing it
I can't feel a thing anymore
To see your face or hear your voice
Reminding me what it's like to feel
I can't.
You've left me behind & I won't bother you.
I love you.
Only below the surface
Can't let the rest of the world know I'm dying.
Won't even let myself know my agony
So I locked it up, far below the surface.
Until one day I find someone to take your place
I don't want anyone but you.
Alone I'll sit & write letters & poems
Every single one written to you.
Because I have so much to say
There are still so many things I want to share.
You told me always, & I thought it would be
I thought I had so much more time
My mistake, it won't happen again.
I'll take this thought & all my others & lock them down below the surface.