I'm So Sorry

I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry for the lies.
For the bad attitude everyday.
All the things I said I'd do but never did.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry I wasn't able to walk out alive.
For not having the will to thrive
All your tough love didn't prepare me enough.
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry for not being enough
For not being so sure & then not at all
All my dreams died with the leafs.
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry for disappointing you
For falling short of your expectations
All the while wasting my time.
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry I didn't have the will to fight
For not knowing how to ask for help
All I really want is support.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry I was too afraid to say goodbye
For letting him win my spirit.
All I wanted was for him to come back.
I'm so sorry,
I'm sorry I don't know how to communicate
For all the horrible things I've said
All I was trying to do was make you listen.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry for wanting out
For pushing you away from me.
All the times I've made you miss.
I'm so sorry,
I'm sorry for my resentment, for my anger.
For all those backhanded comments.
For everything I did to hurt you the way I was hurting.
I'm so sorry.

But I'm also thankful.
So thankful for the life you made possible.
Thank you.
Thank you for the gift of music.
Thank you for the gift of teaching.
Thank you for the gift of health.
Thank you for the passion for independence.
Thank you for the passion for life.
Thank you.
Thank you so much.
Forgive me.
I love you.

Dedicated to my parents.