The One Who Got Away :(

So ... I haven't really liked a guy for almost 2 years ... I mean LIKE like, as in smiling every time you see him, think of him, anyone even mentions him ... well he was every thing I've ever dreamed of ... & today I found out he has a girlfriend. Now I haven't known him for very long AT ALL, but I "fell". I'm happy for him, honestly. I'm praying even now as I type this that he'll be happy forever & that he & his girlfriend will be together as long as God sees fit. I can't give up. It's been so long since any guy made me that happy in such a short time ... I'll pray for him everyday. Here's to all those people who change you in a matter of a few days. I'll tell you a secret, I love him. Just love. That's what my God sightings (aka preschoolers) have taught me most this week. To just love. Arms wide open, eyes closed, no worries. That's the best kind of love. It's gonna be hard tomorrow to say good bye to my preschoolers. I LOVE them. They change me everyday.

My Preschoolers at VBS

There is nothing in the world so beautiful as a preschooler. It's a time when you still believe that mommy & daddy are the most amazing people in the world, God is still you're very most favorite being, you cry when you can't play for long, bubbles, laughter, & chalk fill your days. You love so easily & forgive even easier. Boys are people who you love but are okay if they run away. There are two preschoolers I absolutely adore. Collin & Maesa. They both made my day by telling me they loved me in that shy cute way that just wraps me around their little adorable fingers. Here's to the preschooler in all of us. Don't be afraid to love & forgive, & don't sweat the stubbed toes & all those times you fall down, that's the whole part of the adventure. Don't forget to explore everything, everyday.

1st day of my schedule & it's going really well. Of course I have to tweak a few things, but other than that, it's wonderful. I'm SUPER tired though! I do a work out video for fat people for an hour, then I bike around lake Phalen & just work & stuff. It's so much work but I feel so good. I'm going to add a dance technique video soon so that I can work on that, as well as working on sight singing. It still bothers me that I have to give myself piano lessons & mom gives piano lessons to her friends the Greens. It just makes me REALLY jealous. I'm actually a VERY jealous person, especially when it come to my parents. They just ignore me basically. Mom is basically my employer. I work for room & board. Blah no sense dwelling on that. Off to study for my ACTs!

GAH! Sooo I kind of hate the people I'm going to be staying with. NOT my God mother but her kids just GET ON MY NERVES!!!!! They're REALLY ignorant & rude. The biggest problem is that they all adore me ... Which means I can't get rid of them ... EVER!!!!!!!! Sometimes when I sleep over they watch me sleep ... KINDA creepy you know? Oh I'm also pretty ticked because Dad told me he & mom were going to be home at 2, 2:30ish & now mom says they won't be home for another 2 hours. This REALLY screws with Abbster & I's plans sooo ... I'm gonna stay at Abbster's for QUITE a while. Grrrrr. Oh & then mom was like "& stop texting, I need to work on my marriage". I wanted to say "Oh gee mom you think?" But that's rude & disrespectful so I just THINK these things. Blah well Ciao!

1st Day!

GAH!!!! So I'm REALLY bad at this sort of thing ... I mean REALLY bad. Sooo ... mom & dad are leaving for a day long vacation without us so we're off to White Bear to stay with my God mother! Abbster & I are hanging out tomorrow! SO excited. We're probs going to see How To Train Your Dragon! =-D