Starting Anew

Happy Valentine's Day guys. The guy I allowed into my life further than I have let any other guy celebrated with his girl friend today ... he made her a video. Blah. He played me, whatever. Today I discovered that trying to be someone else makes you miss your bus & uncomfortable all day & cold. It's not worth it. So tomorrow I start over. No more silly obnoxious attention needer. I need to stop being the annoying & pathetic person I've become. I look & listen to myself & all I see & hear are things I don't want to be. So here's to a new start. Who cares if I'm just the back up plan? At least they know they have someone to turn to & that's all they can ask for. I'm going to be okay, I really am. & so is everyone else. Everything is going to be fine. God has got my back & he'll never leave me for someone better ;) I don't need a boy, I need a man & no one I know is a man right now. Logan is arrogant, Isaac is a mess, Michael ... he played me & there's nothing for it. Tomorrow I start a new. Now I'm off to help my mom & then off to sleepy-bye land where I can fly & sit by the ocean with a real man. Farewell!