Boys of the Past

There they are, rolling by

The faces of my past

On they go, like a silent parade

On display, all the boys of my past.

First there was Lee, I "fell" for him in 4th grade.

Asian & smart, clever & clean.

But he "loved" someone else, so on he goes.

Not even stopping to look at me.

Next there was Adrian, he was my 5th grade dream.

He had dated a girl in my class, but I hadn't liked her.

Hispanic & short, popular & mean

I wrote him notes from "someone else" telling him to date me.

He didn't buy it so next was Alexander in 6th grade

Chubby & tall, awkward, white, & smart.

Whenever he was around I spoke twice as loud

I avoided him on the dance floor & wrote a note to apologize

But the note was intercepted & we danced alone in front of everyone.

Emmerson was my 7th grade crush, or at least for a while.

I sat next to him in math & he had the cutest smile.

He was tall & lanky, blonde & adorable.

Never had the courage to tell him, but another caught my eye

Logan was my "true love" in 7th grade, he was a year older

Glasses & brown hair, nerdy & artistic.

My friend kept bothering him & eventually he asked me out

Over the summer he fell for someone else

Then after her, he came back to me again

We dated on & off all through 8th grade & on to 9th.

He followed me to my high school where we promptly broke up

Next came Isaac & this is where it all goes to shit.

He was blonde & tall, & goofy & wonderful.

I still missed Logan but Isaac was so sweet

Eventually we dated after much pressure but only for 2 days

See, I never knew if I really liked him.

He disappeared & that was that so now we're on sophomore year

Isaac had my thoughts until December 5th when we fought.

Charles was a hottie that I met in a show

He & I couldn't have worked because he was so old.

Back came Isaac & he stole my attention.

Then lost it again as Junior year started up.

Michael was the new guy, tall, dark, & handsome,

He stole my heart & held it for ransom.

We flirted on & on, for months & months

& just when I thought we were close, he jumped to another girl

In study hall there was a curly haired sophomore.

Cute as a button & geeky too, he held my gaze.

Andy was his name & I couldn't help but crush out.

Writing notes, giggling, & flirting like kids.

He asked me to prom & I said obviously yes & did a little dance.

I was so excited, hoping he'd ask me out

The day of the prom brought a lovely surprise.

not only did he not like me, he liked my friend.

They'd been talking about me behind my back the whole time

I moped all summer & now I'm a senior.

Isaac came back, my heart weakened

I let myself go, to fall into his arms

& all I found were knifes.

Now Michael is back & at his old games.

Who to choose? How to feel?

I watch their faces parade on by.

Lee, Adrian, Alexander, Emmerson, Logan, Isaac, Michael, Andy.

Each frozen in a memory.

Sure I wrote their names on little pieces of paper

& lit their names on fire with all the lies.

They may have kicked me when I was down.

But all their faces are imprinted in my mind.

Those boys all left, but there's something left behind.

no matter what I say, or how I feel,

I still love them, for the changes they made

To make this Princess Behind the Frog.