Because of the chaos I can't feel your love.

All the mess I deal with gives me too much to handle

I'm so tired & so scared of everything

You just tell me to get over it

I AM SCARED!

So so so much so, & I have no hand to hold

Why do you make me do this alone

No matter what I say, you'll always make me do it alone

Maybe you do love me, but not enough.

I'm not the kind of girl who can just do new things alone

Is it so much to ask for some support?!

Life is one big scary mess & I need someone to turn to.

That's not you. No matter what I've tried to tell myself,

You are just not some one I can depend on.

Does that hurt you?

Knowing that your daughter can't depend on you?

I constantly feel like a burden.

Some stupid daughter who is always asking for too much.

Please don't tell me that's not true, because that's how I feel.

My life is one big ball of stress.

I am trying so hard but sometimes it's not good enough.

Who am I to you?

Honestly who am I?

Not a daughter, not a son, so who?

A lodger, a guest?

I've never felt at home in my house.

Only in my bed, asleep.

There, does that speak to you?

Is that loud enough to show you?

You are not here for me.

I have to do this on my own

So what have I to be thankful for?

Getting a chance to grow up that much faster.