Have you ever given everything to a person & tried to continue loving them? It hurts. Especially when you never did anything wrong. I saw that an old friend of mine was online & so I tried talking to him but he just snapped on me. This is the boy who told me that he was "in like" with me & that he'd never get over me & that he'd always love me. Then I say I want to talk & he responds with a "of all the times you choose now to talk." He says this as if I did something wrong. Of course now he has a girl friend. I just hope a few months from now he's not going to say it was all a show & that he was just hurt & still missed me. Urg it's so frustrating. I always fall for the guys who have too many problems to ever be good for me. & tomorrow I go under the knife. They are removing my gull bladder, isn't that just freaking great? Gah he hurts me so much. Remind me again WHY THE HELL I TRY TALKING TO HIM?!?!?!?!? Because I'm stupid. DUH! Blah. You know what? Screw him. I have an amazing life & this really sweet, cute guy that I happen to be forming a crush upon & yes I know I probably am going to end up liking him too much as I always do no matter how I try, but you know what? That's okay. Because feeling too much is better than feeling too little. See? There goes my God Father to make me feel all better. ;) That's all life is. Just a bunch of ups & downs. One enormous, crazy roller coaster. & I FREAKING LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!! Life. It's beautiful, it hurts, it soars, & it crashes into 25 trillion pieces. It's all I know & it's all I care to know. I've got my froggies, & my chalk, my friends, my crush, my sunshine, my music, my writing, my everything. I've got it made in the shade. Who needs those who harm us? Oh grody my tummy just made an UBER nasty noise ... won't miss that. ;) Now all I need is for my crush to tell me I'm cute again & I'll be flying in the clouds. He makes me smile like an idiot. ;) Even his so called "creepy" faces. God has my back so I say HERE'S TO LIFE, WORLD, HERE'S TO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!