I Can't

I can't do this.
I can't go through all of this again,
I just flat out can't.
There are things that are best left alone,
Personally I think this is one of those things.
I love you, but I'm not in love with you.
Can you believe there's such a difference?
This may sound selfish, but I want you to like me.
Not because I like you (I don't think),
But because it makes me feel special.
I hate thinking this, but it's the truth.
Who knows if one day we'll end up together?
For now, I just don't want to think about it.
Maybe I want you to like me because then you'll actually talk,
Then it actually seems like we're friends.
You are a wonderful guy & I wish you well,
But you've got to see it from my point of view.
I can't date & honestly, right now I don't want to.
Please let me find my place of peace for now.
Let's be best friends like we were for so long,
Then once I'm 16 we can start thinking about this.
I know it's hard & I never wished it to be this way.
Give me a chance to breathe, a chance to think,
Because all of that drama is stressful.
Don't think I'm blowing you off because I'm not,
That's the last thing I want to do to you.
So understand that I'm just putting it on a shelf,
Because I can't do this.
I can't go through all of that again,
I just flat out can't.
Not because I don't want to, but because I'm just not ready.
There are things that are best left alone for awhile,
Personally, I think this is one of those things.