The Actress I Am

I am an actress, one of the best you've ever seen

But you don't know that because the character I'm playing, you think is me.

Sometimes I overact it, so you think I'm a bitch, or self-centered

Other times I let the mask slip.

Even still, you keep buying what I'm selling.

Never doubting that I am who I say I am

I'm not though, not even close.

Deep inside there is a person no one even knows

You don't, I don't, Only God knows me.

He crafted me, created me, planted me

But the girl he made wasn't good enough for the world

So I shut me up inside the big stone sanctuary, where I can't reach myself

I know not to come out, because every time I do, I get hurt.

I am a secret, the kind that no one ever knows

But no one can can tell because I'm so well concealed

To distract you from your main focus, I scream.

I laugh, I jump, I leap, & yell, & prance

Around this girl you'd think that's pure individuality

Fooled. That's what you are, fooled.

Made to believe the lies I hand out like candy

The smiles, the laughs, the bliss, the dance.

You eat it up, I have you eating out the palm of my hand.

Why am I acting? Why do I lie?

Because you won't care

When tears stream down my face, you'll get uncomfortable

Ask what's wrong then give me a hug but you'll walk away.

Crawl back into your hole & forget about my pain

Next time you see me, you won't remember a thing.

Because sometimes I'll over act it, & sometimes I'll let it slip

Underneath, there's still me.

You'll never see her because she knows you won't care.

I'm an actress, the best you've ever seen

But you don't know that because the character I'm playing, you think is me.