I feel tired. I danced for the first time today since my surgery & ... well okay not the first time but I mean FULL OUT dancing. Well it was a really hard dance so I'm exhausted. Today is The Day of Silence. Today teens across the nation are silent for all those who are subject to teasing & discrimination. & I know today is only for those who are Gay or Bi-sexual or all those labels for homosexuals, but I think that it's also for all those who have been silent because they too have been teased. Personally, I think this day shouldn't just be about homosexuals, but for everyone. I also know that a lot of people may hate me for seeing today like this, but today isn't supposed to be about the labels. It's about supporting those who have been silent & that means a lot of people, not just that group. I know no one really reads this, so I don't think I'll expand anymore since I've said what I need to say on that subject. I start my sentences all too often with "so". I honestly believe that is the worst transition word, but I use it all the time! Ahhhh study hall. A major waste of my time. Sure I should be doing homework but this room is so completely disgusting, I could never focus. That & I want to watch One Tree Hill like no one's business. I am a fool. & I'm pathetic. That guy? Yeah we were writing & ... I failed. It was pretty bad. Why on earth am I so bad with boys? I am unbelievably amazing with my chick friends but the moment I open my mouth to speak to a guy, I end up making a complete & utter fool of myself. I'm not like other girls. I'm awkward & lame, & HORRIBLE at making conversation. My friends tried to tell me I'm not as awkward as I think I am ... & then roll around laughing at how badly I screw up. This my dear world is why I have been single since middle school. & I know a few people out there would say, "But, Alicia, you broke up with him Freshmen year!" & I would point out that we weren't even really together ever & our relationship really ended the last day of middle school. SPEAK of the Devil, HE GRADUATES THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!! For the first time since 7th grade, I will be free of him & his friends. I could cry I'm so happy. You know why we broke up right? Because I thought I'd have a year away from him before he came to my school. But nooo he had to come. I had prepared to be "single" all Freshmen year. When things don't go the way I planned they get complicated & ... yeah. BUT after May 25th I will never have to deal with him again. I'm so happy.