Last night I went to Stations of the Christ. I cannot explain how amazing it was. Life is so beautiful. Tomorrow, I go to the Minnesota Opera & transform into a Princess. Every time I sit in that audience, I feel like I belong, like I'm living another life. The life where I dress up & look like a charming young woman instead of the tom-boy I've always been. Where I go to Operas & go to fancy restaurants, & am a classy Princess. It's the life I live behind all that I am. I pretend that I am normal buuut ... yeah, I'm full of surprises. So. That boy. I am such an idiot. I mess up & forget to breathe, & it's dumb. My plan? I am going to paint "Just Breathe" on my hand to remind myself. I am silly. I believe in love & I want it so bad that ... I forget. I forget I barely know him, I forget that I am too serious, & I forget that no guy would ever fall for me this fast, if ever. I fall too fast, I feel too happy too soon & I just end up pushing people away. Goodness. I'm a wreck. You know, I've watched almost a whole season of One Tree Hill in a few days. that's almost 3 hours a DVD & that's 5 DVDs. You do the math.

It's Holy Week. My favorite week of the entire year. A week during which the world is redeemed by our God. How beautiful is that? It's breath taking. PLUS I get to see my kid cousin. He & I are pen pals. I write him letters & his mom sends one back with his response. I love him. He is so cute. We always go up to St. Cloud to my God-Father's house for Easter & one year my cousin & I played tag but we could only run in a circle, so I got fast enough to hide some where & he's just keep running around & around. I love that kid. Who cares if he's a kid? I find him far more refreshing than my girl cousins. The tend to leave me out of stuff a lot. To be honest, it used to bother me, but now it's just kind of pointless. I have more fun with the kids anyways. ;) I can't wait for next Sunday. Maybe that guy'll text me ... who knows? Here's to a beautiful week & to being Redeemed.