I just figured something out, & I wanted you (meaning no one) to be the first to hear it. SO. I'm not as strong as I make myself out to be. But I'm only as weak as I am in that moment. If I am vulnerable, then you can beat me until I am black & blue. But if I'm strong, you can't break me. Soooo yeah. Like right now. If any of my past guys came over right now & yelled at me, I would yell right back, but I'd go back inside & cry. I'm really weak right now. All I really want is to get in a car & drive. Drive to Duluth & jump into the lake & soak in the sun. So. Prom. Or as we call it Finale. I want to go with this guy ... my best friend dreamt it happened ... I want him to ask me so badly I could cry. Okay no that's a lie. But I want him to. But I want it to be special. I've only ben asked one other time & it was during lunch & it was mumbled & I was a freshmen. & he ditched me. & then I got H1 N1. It was bad. I don't want to go alone. But I probably will. Which is okay because I'm doing it for my German friend. She's wonderful. So yeah. Okay now I want company. I'm so bi-polar sometimes.